Sunday, February 03, 2013
Personal
I don't usually post personal things on my blog, but my life has been turned upside down.  On January 8th my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.  Chemo might buy him some time, but the cancer is terminal and he is not expected to go into remission.

I have been with him at the hospital thanks to so many dear friends who are surrounding us with love, praying, bringing me meals, staying with me during surgeries, and taking care of our dog and cat.

My husband is the love of my life.  He is kind and good, compassionate, smart, funny, strong, and courageous.  He is in pain, but is handling this with strength.  I, on the other hand, am falling apart.  I can not relieve his pain, and I don't know how to help him.

This is torture.  He is right here in the room with me, but I miss him so much.  I don't know how much time we will have together, I just pray that he can have quality time.

I am so sad and so lonely.  He has been the one to help me through so many difficult times, but he can't help me with this one.  I am in so much pain, but I know that my pain is just a fraction of his.

He just turned 48 in December.  Our 7th wedding anniversary will be the 26th of this month.  This is so unfair and cruel.  My heart is broken.


16 Comments:

Blogger Dorothy said...

Oh dear Wormie, my heart breaks for you. I went through that with my husband 8 years ago and I know how you are feeling. You must take care of yourself so you can be there for him. Cherish your time together and remember the good times. Try to stay strong - believe me, it will help your husband. I wish they could find a cure for this dreadful disease - its just not fair !! My thoughts are with you both. xoxox

Blogger Andrea said...

So, so sorry for your situation! I began following your blog some time ago after enjoying your posts. I, myself, was diagnosed with breast cancer nearly 2 years ago. I well remember the terror. I also remember how helpless my poor husband felt. Keeping you in prayer today...Love,
~Andrea, a reader in OH, USA

Blogger Julie Davis said...

I am so sorry to here about your situation. I am praying for strength and faith in your time of need. Just remember that God has a plan....we may not like it or understand it but it is his plan non the less. I would feel the same way if I was told I only had limited time with my husband, I can not imagine. If I were close I would make you a prayer shawl and give you a hug for all of the comfort it would bring:-( :'(

Blogger Julie Davis said...

I am so sorry to here about your situation. I am praying for strength and faith in your time of need. Just remember that God has a plan....we may not like it or understand it but it is his plan non the less. I would feel the same way if I was told I only had limited time with my husband, I can not imagine. If I were close I would make you a prayer shawl and give you a hug for all of the comfort it would bring:-( :'(

Blogger kpmomma said...

How devastating! My heart goes out to you!!!

Blogger Sarah Dixon said...

Google the Gerson method. It's a homeopathic cure, but worth a shot. There is also a documentary about it.

I'm so sorry. If prayers are any comfort at all, you and your husband are certainly in mine.

Anonymous Sandy said...

Have been thinking about you now for awhile. Am so sorry you're both going through this. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Leaving you a (((HUG)))

Blogger kimmie_35 said...

Sending you {{{hugs}}}...
Thinking of you both...
Hugs
Kim M
x

Blogger Amy King said...

Wormie--I am so sorry to hear about your husband. I only discovered your blog last night and left comments about a quilt. The blog is wonderful. I feel like I've grown to know you somewhat in a very short time. May God's richest blessings be yours and your husband's. He is still a God of miracles. We can only trust that He knows best. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Blogger crafty chrissy said...

I am sorry about the battles your husband and you are faced with. I know it is devastating news. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 1993 right after the birth of my 6 child, right after husband decided he didn't want to be a husband or father anymore. I was 34! Then in 2007, I was told I have Stage 4 Lung Cancer in July and wouldn't make the new year. Well I guess you can tell - I am still here!!! It hasn't been easy - 2 major lung surgeries, radiation TX.s until I can't have anymore, and over a dozen different chemo treatments rounds. Finally, the chemo that I have been on for the last 6 months is slowly shrinking the tumors in my body! The thing is - DON'T LET YOUR HUSBAND GIVE UP! Only GOD knows when our time is up. Be there for him, yes, live each day like it's your last, never take anyone or anything for granted. I had to bury very healthy, beautiful 24 yr. daughter in 2008 due to a car accident - she left behind a 3 yr old son. I don't know why her and I'm still here. It will be a very hard fight, but, keep fighting, try and stay positive and pray! My prayers are for you and your husband.

Anonymous Sandy said...

popping in to leave you another ((HUG))on this Easter Wkend.

Blogger miruspeg said...

What devastating news for both of you. I have angel friends I will send over to comfort you.

I was reading some of my old blog posts and comments and read yours on my post 22 June 2009.
It was a post about Carpe Diem (seize the day).

Take care
Big heart hugs
Peggy ♥♥♥

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sorry! This happened to me 19 years ago. You never get over something like this but you can get through it. You and your family are in my prayers!

- Kamama/Kay Yeager

Anonymous Sandy said...

Popping in, as I have so often to see if there's new news. Leaving you a (((HUG))

Anonymous Sandy said...

Popping in, as I have so often to let you know I'm thinking about you.

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